My inspiration for this record of my days:

“The biggest mistake I made [as a parent] is the one that most of us make. . . . I did not live in the moment enough. This is particularly clear now that the moment is gone, captured only in photographs. There is one picture of [my three children] sitting in the grass on a quilt in the shadow of the swing set on a summer day, ages six, four, and one. And I wish I could remember what we ate, and what we talked about, and how they sounded, and how they looked when they slept that night. I wish I had not been in such a hurry to get on to the next thing: dinner, bath, book, bed. I wish I had treasured the doing a little more and the getting it done a little less” -Anna Quindlen

Monday, June 6, 2016

Another driver

This happened today:


Caleb got his drivers permit!  We were both pretty pleasantly surprised that he passed the test the first time- since he had never actually read the manual.  He drove us home and did a great job!

He also started working for my brother in law Doug this summer.  He rides along with the AC technicians and helps where he's needed.  Hopefully he is paying close attention so that someday he will have the skills to be a tech himself.  The long hours in the heat have been taking a toll on him though.  After his second day of work he came home and fell asleep at 3:00 in the afternoon.  I could NOT get him to wake up until 9:00 the next morning!  Poor guy!

In other news:
Eli has started including this phrase in all of his prayers:  "Please bless dat nothing may accidentally fall upon us."  I'm pretty sure it's taken from the more popular "Please bless that no harm or accident may fall upon us."  Ha!  What will I do when I don't have silly little ones around anymore? 


Tuesday, April 19, 2016

For me to remember

Just some random things I don't want to forget:


Eli got mad at me the other day when we were out in the back yard.  He stormed into the house and locked the door.  Savannah sent me this picture from behind enemy lines.  He built a barricade and said "I'm mad at Mom, so I'm never letting her in!"  Ha!


Speaking of Eli... he has been OBSESSED lately with "crapping" (trapping) birds.  He really wants to "eat some bird meat."   He has spent literally hours trying to figure out how to lure and trap birds so he can kill them.  These are two of his carefully thought out traps:


A nest, complete with play-dough eggs, so a bird will want to come sit on them.



He waited all morning for a bird to wander in there.

He has been stuck on this bird hunting kick for months.  But the other day we were driving somewhere, and I guess the wheels in his head were turning.  He said, very slowly, "Mom, if I crap a bird and it's a mommy, den it won't go back to his nest to take care of da baby birds."  I confirmed that he was right.  "Mom, I'm not going to crap birds anymore.  I'm going to hunt BUNNIES!"

Side note:  Simon was pretty happy to lose his two front teeth.  Especially since Nettie paid him $10 to let her pull one of them out.  That's WAY more than he gets from the tooth fairy!



Simon has gotten up to share his testimony in church for the last two months.  He wanted to get up again this month, but I wanted to make sure his reasons were sincere. (As opposed to... just wanting to get up there so he could hear himself in the microphone.)  I asked him why he wanted to bear his testimony.  His response: "I know that when we bear our testimony, it gets stronger.  And that's one of my goals."  So sweet and mature.  He got up there and said "I like to bear my testimony.  I know the Church is true.  I know that if we never set goals, then we won't get any better."

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And a Jonah story:



Today he was talking about being one of the best basketball players at school.  I was assuming it was going to be a story about how great he was, but it took a really sweet turn.    He said one of the best things about being really good at basketball is that it makes you one of the cool guys.  And then you can use that to help other kids.  "Like, the ones that nobody ever pays much attention to.  If you start to be friends with them, then other people will think they're cool too."  He named several kids that he had done that with, "and now they all have plenty of friends."  What a kind hearted boy he is!










Sunday, January 17, 2016

Eli. And his imagination.

I love my little Eli and his HUGE imagination!


Lately one of his favorite games has been playing "Going to da beach."  He takes his chair outside, along with a blanket and umbrella.  He always brings a cup of water with a straw, and packs himself a snack.


He's usually content to go to the beach by himself, but the other day he decided to take some (imaginary) animals with him.  He had a giraffe, a cow, a horse, and a whole herd of goats!  He kept coming in to get bowls for water and grass to feed them.

After a while, though, he came in really upset.  "Mom! The daddy goat stepped on my toe, and now it really hurts!"  His mind had made it real enough to bring tears to his eyes!

In HEAVEN!  Holding puppies at Aunt Kami's house

He has a little stuffed "baby puppy" named Fubsy that goes everywhere with him.  Sadly, Fubsy had been missing for about two weeks.  I found him recently while folding laundry, and called Eli in excitedly to show him.  He was, as predicted, SUPER excited.  He hugged Fubsy and spun around and around saying "I can't believe it!"  After a minute, he started to worry that it was too good to be true.  "Wait, Mom.  Are we in a gweam? (translation dream)?"  When I told him that no, this wasn't a dream, he turned back to Fubsy.  "Fubsy!  It's not a gweam!!"

This packing job really struck my funny bone.  He packed his own suitcase to go to Thatcher.  These are, apparently,  all the most important things to take along.  Fubsy is the little black dog on the right.




One of our favorite pastimes- cuddling on the hammock after the kids leave for school

I keep trying to get Eli to promise that he will stay 4 forever.  He just laughs and says that he's going to grow up and be a dad.   I can't imagine life without a little one around the house!  I guess it is bound to happen at some point.  Heaven knows I don't have the energy that I used to.

But in the meantime, I'm enjoying every day that I have with this loving, enthusiastic, imaginative boy.  I'm so grateful that he's mine!





Monday, December 14, 2015

My Simon

 I want to write down a few special things about Simon before I forget them.



Simon is a really special kid.  He is smart and spunky.  Fun-loving and dependable.  Sweet, but with a tough exterior.  And always with a twinkle of mischief in his eye!  And the older he gets, the more I see kindness and an unusual spiritual maturity in him.

He loves singing.  Every night he pulls up his shirt so I can scratch his back while I sing him a song.  And every night he sings along with me.  Last week I had lost my voice, so he sang the lullaby while I scratched his back.

He likes to sit by me in church so we can sing the hymns together.  He can read well enough now that he follows along, and sings every word of every hymn.  A couple of weeks ago at the Sunday dinner table, we were doing "highs."  Simon said his high was singing the songs in sacrament meeting.  Way to melt his mother's heart!

Over Thanksgiving the cousins were all sleeping in Grandma and Grandpa's "rumpus room."  The movie had ended (it was like 11:00pm) and most of the kids were asleep. Grandpa walked through to turn off the TV and saw Simon upside down on the couch.  Thinking he had crashed in an uncomfortable position, he went to help Simon lay down in his bed.  But Simon wasn't asleep. Grandpa had accidentally interrupted his personal prayers.  All on his own, late at night, this sweet boy was praying to his Heavenly Father.

Tonight Jeff was trying to coax the kids into cleaning up the family room, and Simon was the only one cooperating.  After several failed attempts to get the older kids helping,  Jeff went and got a stack of fifty one dollar bills and handed them to Simon as a reward!  (Perhaps a bit over dramatic, but that's not the point.)  Now, to understand the rest of the story, you have to know how much Simon loves money!  He is always trying to get people to pay him for things he has done, or sweet talk them into donating to him.  So fifty dollars was a dream come true for him!!  He had a great time waving it around in front of his incredulous siblings!



But a couple of hours later, he heard Josh lamenting that he didn't have enough money to pay for Christmas presents because he owed money for a broken window.  He quietly went and got his whole stack of money and handed it to Josh.  "Here Josh.  You need this more than I do."  I couldn't believe it!  Just like that, he was willing to part with that money for his brother.  Josh didn't accept the money, but I was so moved by that gesture.  What a pure little heart- to give, without hesitation, everything he had.

As I type this, he keeps getting out of his bed to get "one more drink" or to try to explain why Eli deserves the spit on his bed.  So I guess he's a pretty typical almost-seven-year-old.  Not always an angel.

The scriptures say that Mary "kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart."  I want to do the same thing with these sweet experiences I have with my children.  The best way I know of to "keep" these things, is to write them down.  And as I ponder them in my heart, I feel that heart swell with gratitude to my Heavenly Father. What a humbling, joyful privilege it is to be the mother of such an amazing little boy.  I can't wait to see the man he will become.

Saturday, October 3, 2015

Something about boys

Boys are their own species for sure.  I should know.  I live in a house full of them!



Growing up in a family of mostly girls, I was not prepared for this life.  I have really come to love and embrace their strange world, for the most part.

The super heros and the ninjas; the bugs and lizards; the fireworks; the sound effects; the dirt and the constant food.  It really is quite charming and endearing when you stop trying to understand, and just roll with it.




But there is one thing about boy-ness that I am struggling to embrace.  The never-ending, constant, unrelenting, continual motion!  It's really making me crazy! I know there is a scientific law that says that an object in motion tends to stay in motion.  Boys are proof of that law!

It is really rare to find a moment in my house when all objects and people are at rest.  There are always balls being bounced against the wall.  There are balls and/or NERF bullets flying through the air.  There are rip-sticks or hover boards zipping around corners.  There are hands and feet flashing out to "barely touch" a brother as he walks by.  There are sock skaters and blanket magic carpets.  There are people leaping over couches or jumping to touch every door jam as they pass through... just to see if they can do it.




It's exhausting.  But only for me, apparently.

Sunday, September 27, 2015

This girl

I don't even know how to start this post.

This girl...



This girl...



This girl...



This girl...

It wasn't back to school for her.  This year it was off to school.

The last couple of weeks before she left were rough.  When friends would casually ask me if I was ready, my eyes would well up with tears, and we had to change the subject.  Today as I write this, I have to keep blinking fast to keep the tears at bay.  Oh how I miss that girl!

Some of the tears were just because I knew we would miss her.  She is a walking ray of sunshine! She is helpful and has always included me in the details of her life.  She has a ready smile and is kind to everyone.  Especially adoring little brothers.

And sure enough, the house feels empty without her.  The little boys talk about her constantly and always remember her in their prayers.  She came home for a visit this weekend, and she was like a rock star!  Everyone wanted to sit by her and tell her things and show her things.  She handled the suffocation well.

Some of the tears were sadness that this phase of my life has come to an end.  The phase of having all of my sweet little children together under one roof is over.  It went so fast!  It has been an exhausting and demanding phase for sure, but deeply rewarding.  I never could have imagined how intense or fulfilling motherhood could be.

Some of my tears, thankfully, were tears of happiness and optimism.  Rebecca is so ready for this step!  She is wise beyond her years and full of faith.  I have complete confidence in her.  I already love the growth that I can see in her.  She told me the other day, "I didn't realize that I needed independence until I had it!"  She was content at home, and nervous about assuming adult responsibilities.  She has been pleasantly surprised at how much she loves being on her own.

We dropped her off at EAC a couple weeks before school started.  The plan was for her to ride a bike or a scooter around.  But as we pulled away from town, Jeff couldn't stand it.  He decided then and there that he was going to buy her a car.  So she is now set up with an apartment full of roommates that she loves, a job at the Safford feed store, and an old clunker of a car to get her around.

This girl is off to a great start as an adult!



Monday, September 14, 2015

Melted my heart

Not long ago Eli crawled in bed with me early in the morning. He snuggled in with me, and I wrapped an arm around him with my eyes still closed in hopes of conveying the message that it was still time to be sleeping.

He was staring at me, and started stroking my face. He have a big, morning-breath sigh and said quietly "I like dis kind of mom."


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