Back in the day… if you asked me, “Did you pay that bill?” or “Will you be at the meeting?” I could answer you with a definite yes or no. Yes, I have a library book checked out. Yes, I can bring cookies to the party. No, I won’t be able to make it to volunteer on that day. I have another commitment.
But lately I just don’t trust myself. A couple of days ago I told a friend that I was on my way to her house to return something, then I promptly hung up the phone and went shopping! Almost every week I make some commitment for Friday afternoon, and then have to call and reschedule because I had forgotten about piano lessons. Last week I forgot to pick up Rebecca from school. Just forgot! I was clipping roses.
Last week the treasurer for Savannah’s synchro team asked me… “Did you pay your bill for this month? I can’t find it.” I had a fairly specific memory of sending a check with Savannah, but I didn’t trust it. Luckily I found proof online that it had been cleared. Only then did I feel confident enough to say “Yes, I’m sure I paid that.”
I swear that I haven’t always been this confused. I swear I used to be an organized, responsible person. At least that’s how I remember it…