My inspiration for this record of my days:

“The biggest mistake I made [as a parent] is the one that most of us make. . . . I did not live in the moment enough. This is particularly clear now that the moment is gone, captured only in photographs. There is one picture of [my three children] sitting in the grass on a quilt in the shadow of the swing set on a summer day, ages six, four, and one. And I wish I could remember what we ate, and what we talked about, and how they sounded, and how they looked when they slept that night. I wish I had not been in such a hurry to get on to the next thing: dinner, bath, book, bed. I wish I had treasured the doing a little more and the getting it done a little less” -Anna Quindlen

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

My Calling

I have often said that one of my “callings in life”  is to make other people feel good about themselves.  Unfortunately I don’t accomplish this feat by any extra effort or great charitable acts.  It just comes naturally.  When people look at me and my life, they can feel pretty good about how they measure up.

I’m not saying this in a self-depreciating sort of a way.  I’m just pretty comfortable in my own skin, (even if that skin is not as young and firm as it once was) and I don’t have the energy to try to impress.

I hope other women will be able to look at my life and say to themselves “Christi’s house is rarely clean, and she still enjoys being at home.  It feels welcoming there.”  Or “Christi doesn’t always look like a million bucks, but she seems to be confident and socially acceptable anyway.”

I hope that I can be one who breaks the cycle of women comparing themselves to each other, and feeling like they can never live up to the standard.

President Spencer W. Kimball said, and I paraphrase, that great things will happen when women [of faith] are seen as different- in happy ways- than women of the world. 

I don’t mind being different- in happy ways.  The being different comes fairly easily.  I just hope I can pull off  the happy and the socially acceptable, too!

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